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What the Hell

blackfoxartpoems
Jan 23
1 min read

Updated: Mar 7

TW: allusion to sexual harassment

I am attacked

In the place I am weakest

What I’ve been through

Keeps going though

My life

Why does this happen

Again

Over and Over

Again

I did nothing this time

I can't pretend to have played a part

I did nothing

There was no start

I can’t even gaslight myself

Into thinking there was

There was absolutely nothing

No way, shape, or form

There was no conversation

No observations

And when he asked

I gave no accommodations

Completely unexpected

I was thrown off

My sense of safety

Once again, lost

And in a PLACE OF GOD.

What? Why? This time?

What have I done wrong?

Am I never going to escape this?

Will my life always be so flawed?

What the hell.

Truly I ask.

Will I be attacked more

As I get closer to God?

It makes sense I guess

But that doesn’t mean it’s fair

I want to be in peace

Not with raised hairs

I want to feel calm

Anything but this

This horrible feeling

I have not missed.

I don’t want this

I don’t think anybody would

What am I supposed to do?

What is there that I could?

-- BlackFox

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