Loving Gentle Heart

Loving gentle heart

How screwed you must be,

To have opened up so much

& have so many casualties.

Still, you love, don’t you?

Loving gentle heart

How troubled you must be,

To have trusted someone 

& it broken so easily.

Still, you trust, don’t you?

Loving gentle heart

How scared you must be,

To have let someone in

& they hurt you so brutally.

Still, you speak, don’t you?

No.

Speak less.

Trust less.

Love, less.

No longer selfless.

Loving gentle heart

You are still,

A loving gentle heart.

I’d figured 

that with all you’ve been through,

You’d fallen apart.

But you’re still here,

Loving, yourself

Trusting, yourself

Protecting, yourself

Speaking less though.

Because you are scared.

You are cautious,

Who you give your words to

It makes me nauseous.

Just to think

How much care you take

Just to be safe

Loving gentle heart

How numb you must be,

To have trusted someone with your pain

& having it end horribly.

Loving gentle heart

How tired you must be,

To try to make friends

& they look at you differently.

Loving gentle heart

How angry you must be,

To fall in the same traps

Often walking blindly.

You are screwed

Troubled.

Scared.

Numb.

Tired.

Angry.

You should be.

And yet, you are still, a loving, gentle heart.

Cut and bruised, battered and broken,

Still, you long to be a loving, gentle heart

Though loving is nigh impossible

& being gentle is dangerous,

The tightrope you walk is quite precarious.

Still, you walk.

Because if you didn’t love

Sometimes,

You’d die.

To not love anything

Is to say goodbye.

And if you weren’t gentle

Sometimes,

Then no one would know to be gentle

With you.

It’d be a never-ending battle,

They wouldn’t have a clue

What to do

When your strength has fallen through.

You must trust, someone

You must speak, to someone

Show, your loving gentle heart

Though it may be falling apart,

Because if that heart is not shared

It will die thinking nobody cared,

That it was useless.

And never helped anyone.

And it might have been right,

Had you let yourself come undone.

-- BlackFox