Insanity

There are so many things I want to say

And paint

I want to scream so loud that my voice reaches eons into the future

I want to break so hard that I have nothing left to break for

I want to cry until there’s no tears left to shed

I want to let it all out.

So I can breathe. And finally step forward.

I have this ideal version of me where I can wake up in the morning and have enough time to do everything I want to do. 

But I know that’s not true.

That’s not human.

But I will try.

I will work until I am satisfied.

And I will dream until I’m dead.

I will strive for the best

Even if I fail. 

Each and every God damned time. 

I will get up.

And I will try again.

And each time I’ll get better.

I’ll achieve something.

I’ll move forward, even if it feels like a treadmill.

Because why would I do anything else?

Maybe I am insane.

- BlackFox