I Have Issues

I have issues

That I feel how my hair sits on my shoulders

Brushing against it as I pace around my room

The warmth that surrounds my head

As my arms come up to comfort it, failing

The staggering breaths coming from my lungs

As I overthink about what I am failing to do

The weight of the dread that surrounds me

When all I can hear in my head are my own thoughts

They drown out everything

I’m encased in a feeling of anxiety

Like a closing coffin waiting for the nails to be hammered in

I am staggering now, begging to be let out

I don’t want to feel this anymore

The pain hurts more so when you know

The solution that is so simple

Just try.

But my brain takes paralyzing strides

I am locked in a state of unrest

Heart beating out of my chest

Unmoving within my own mess

I am trapped here.

-- BlackFox