Ain't Feel Too Well

Ain’t feel too well

Ain’t sleep too well

My work is shit

Don’t feel so lit

Don’t know where we’re going with this

My art is bad

It makes me sad

My only way

To let it out

To let it loose

I can't do that

Not anymore

My creative juices

Have breached the shore

There ain’t no more

To let out pour

Onto paper

And through the pen

There’s no more ink

There hasn’t been 

For a while

And for the time

My precious time

Has been unkind

I feel so weak

Like can’t repeat

The memories

They stress me out

They feel so loud

Shout let me out

You want to scream

You want to cry

But shut your mouth

Cause they can’t see

The dark that leaps

From in your head

Into your life

You just can’t keep 

From feeling weak

Annoyed and numbed

But tired still

A cruel joke

My friends poke 

They know but don’t 

Not all that well

They’re real perceptive though

They like to try

To see what's wrong

To help me with

My all sad songs

They’re here for me

When I need most

Like life savers

They help me float

Above the chaos 

Into the calm

A sea of wonder

In the safety of their arms

One touch enough

To bring me back

From anxiety attack

My heart racing

From panic attack

But I’m still here

As all they are

Are fleeing thoughts

Causing pain

Lots and lots

But they don’t hurt

Not the way

That real life did

When it happened first

I’ll be okay

With the help I need

With all friends here

To help me leave

That past life

That hurt so bad

I’ll move on

Eventually 

-- BlackFox