Boom.

What happened today?

What happened yesterday?

What happened to all the days

All the way back to Sunday?

We were good

Weren’t we?

So what happened 

After that?

We had come home

We had cleaned up

We planned our whole week

We updated the calendar

We put away clothes

We enjoyed the clean

Boom. 

Delirium 

Back to self sabotage

Had a good day

Now back to the ticking bomb

In my bed

In my room

In every single aspect

Of my impending doom

You are not good

You are bullshit

Everything you do

You cannot commit

You don’t work

You don’t eat

Medication

Haven’t taken

In a week

You stupid bitch

You’re hurting yourself

Ignoring it

You’re getting worse.

How do I help you?

What can I do?

What do you need

So you can continue?

Every time there’s a night of hope

You just wake up

And continue to mope

What loss are you mourning?

Not sleeping till morning

Turning uselessly here and there

Getting up late

And hating yourself

What the fuck happened?

Why are you here

In this hole

Desperation and more

Depression galore

Drinking again

What the fuck.

…we were better

…what happened?

-- BlackFox